I Know What Mine Is..

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK?
That and a Jack n' Coke... ahhh..
Whats the elixir that opens back up them pores lol?
Are you a mixer?
A straight chaser?
Are you allergic to dark liquor?
Cant stand the taste of white liquor? (smdh)


I been drinkin on my potion for a lil while tonite..
It got me in the zone to read a good part of my book..
I've been missing alot of my old blog traffic but
I guess that comes with the times..
Hope all's monday came witout haste.
Mine is going in a light blur.
Be blessed freinds, just checkin in.

(oh shouts to Snoop and all the Jews that are cool- they always have the great weed, like that seven syllable shit.. the third girl I ever slept with was Jewish, she was fine too..)

Ya Boy on Vacate...

Waddap Romper Roomers.. I know I had the blog set aside for a quick lil minute. Well thing is, is that ya boy is on vacation!! Well vaction. lol Yea I went down to Galveston off the coast for some RnR. Im enjoying myself as much as i can.. And the alcohol is carrying me the rest of the way through. Im staying at a real plush beach house through a hook up and im down here for a week.. I'll try to get some pics up let yall know what im fuckin wit.. Miss yall- My up front players and the email clic who hits me behind the curtains.. Lil do u know yall are in my prayers and thoughts alot(at all times). But I put down pretty much all the communications I normally rock on a day to day basis till Saturday.. Be cool. I hit the beach today... Im warn out.. hopefully I get the speedboat hookup from some people I know out here.. Im out yall peacenluv -Q.

Yeah folk, let me know whats good.. I still got my eyes peeled just aint stretching my neck out lol

RIP
Michael Jackson
Aturo Gatti
Steve McNair
Farrah Fawcett
Joyce Destina Roberson-Grandma I Love U Always...

Big Push

This year, October 19th, 2009, I will turn 28. Many times like this, it knocks a pause of thought and reflection,when it comes to my attention. The majority of my friends are opening the door (to 30) or just tipped-toed through. To date I've been reluctant to talk about it with them. Wondering about what I might be uncomfortable to find out and/or bare bare witness to realizations that I've been working on and failed to attain.

An overwhelming flow of responsibility has been pushing at me as the years come along. Sometimes I think maybe I made 30 my own tipping point..Where cause and more importantly direction will be clear. Therefor my moves and actions towards my goals are fluid and bold. No longer are the days that (I accept being told or having the mindset) I'm a young man and I have a life ahead of me. At 27 your life should have begun to show sign of fruit of progression in life. Not necessarily results but what you've done and planned for from adolescence to young adult life. For this, is the beginning. Or at least should be. I feel that my 27( 25, 24 for that matter)yr/old's path should be charted at this time.. Maturity and benchmarks- with school, career, property, savings, investments ect.would be starting to get met without as much match as when I was 20, 21. No longer the young man am I.

'The old nigga is makin' it or needs to get his act together'. Literary thought. My mom always emphasized to me; maximize your 20's. "You dont wanna struggle when your going through the struggle. I've come to intimately realize that the(responsible: key word) 35+ person deals with stresses, responsibilities, planning and everyday encounters much more profound than a young adult. Its not quite the same and for that they earn a hell of aot of respect for that. Because its always easy to do nothing, to be irresponsible, to be not dependable, humble, not to have a foresight of your younger and elder members of your folks future's- we all know a handful of folks that when as far as up the block, to the corner store, and back- and it took they whole life to do it...And thats all they did.you know?

New York City (as a kid coming in to this world in the early 80's) I remember 30's as an age people flourishing or fighting there afflictions: trying to find a balance in career/home/financial stability, some were fighting drug addiction to actually live life once again, finding love or deciding to personally run from it, and transitioning into leaders of the clan and keepers of the elderly. We all remember what we witness, especially as young children and generally make a mold of some model we seen- 'lot of us swear we our own person but we just found somebody outside of any circle we know to be like... If we didnt, we could trash the word inspiration.

I have a wonderful gift of parents. One that has taught me how to persevere, plan, and attack goals- another has taught me the pitfalls of lack of responsibility, discretion, and what mistakes not to make to be comfortable and more so at peace at 50+(its so00 not that far away- think of how fast your years of late has past you). Life is what you live, so you have to live it, you have to take chances, you have to expose and be truthful to your weaknesses- for they will hold you back in life more than anything,you have to allow yourself to not get grown too quick. But its a big mental push- not an obstacle.. Perhaps more of what you dont know and the anxiety when you cross that threshold.. But I got my head up- already taking the old as Eddie Murphy jokes and shit better without slapping the end-of-bread- crumbs outta sombody's mouth. I still look bout 20 so thats a check.I think that means 30 @50 right. Im just gonna keep right on pushin.. Shouts to the grown folks.. -Q.

This moment in -Q. : Spirituality

Spirituality.

See thats a motherfucka in itself. And a dear friend. With those characteristics draws long relationships and ups and downs.Its not religion im talking. Spirituality.Dealing with my spirit personally and with my Higher power. I dont want to talk about church (which i regularly go); I want to talk about heavenly-mindedness as it relates to me. I think i can do without church.. But as I learn more about the Word, it says that the church was made for us to worship. That some blessings are missed by not gathering(where God is when there is at least two or three in his name- Mathew 18:20) together.However my personal walk, my lone walk with my Father, my one on one- its a long one and a trivial one at that. Being 27, bout to be 28 its a fairly young relationship. Weak, in my eyes, to my standard of what a relationship is. As many in a young relationship I deal with one sidedness alot. I seek help, love, shelter, advice, resolve, absolution.. sometimes all at once, sometimes not. But im always seeking something. I dont always give back, give in. I dont address the relationship nor allow my spirit to be filled with warmth, study or, wisdom as I fight through my daily walk on my own until... Until I cant fight on my own anymore, until I did things my way to the point I cant do, till the point im alone or shut out, until its me and my creator. My Father.

A true Father is a dear freind and dear freinds if they know you truly have a bond stick by you even when you show your ass. Alot. To their face.. Because they know you- sometimes better than you do yourself(in this case, its a little extreme lol). A true father gets to you and reaches you in ways that you will definitely understand so you get it before your trials come before you. A true father shows you love. Yea, guess thats what im saying. But just with any relationship with a child, you go through the nurturing stage where its just supervisement and care.. Then later in age there comes a time where that trust through all that nurturing as a very young child, takes your relationship to another level as you begin to understand the the things you were taught, and more so, what you were shown and walked through. Its that- the adolescence of life where you then become adult in your ways or walk your walk- that of a child. A spiritual child. Many of us in our spirituality walk my walk. And learn lessons harder than than if they walk their righteous path. Like anything else that has to grow you have to feed your spirit. The good and the bad, but to keep it healthy you need prayer and meditation, positivity in a cleansing sense not necessarily religion: song, literature, enriching others especially children and needy.Those things really change you inside. Ask someone who might engage any of those activities.. I dont do those things enough(to my standard) as I should.Some would say I do alot. But only you know your spirit.

I sometimes( glad not to be in that season now) ignore my spirituality and it takes a back seat to everything; to anything.Its funny how people think their at their best when there at their worse or better yet empty- Its like a second wind. You have to go hard or if you stop, your done.lol. Mothafucka. What I have in my spirit and the relationship with its Provider is irreplaceable and I value it more and more as I get older. The picture isn't getting bigger, im just realizing how big it is. Im really starting to see my self, my spirit. And dont get it twisted, we're like the red skittle in a big 5lb bag you know. we're only human. We make our mistakes. And whatever you believe in, we didnt get here on our own. Some entity had us in mind for this very moment. I cant think of what to put on some mornings, let alone how this very thing we blog on, the internet, could ever been created- better yet what id do without it! So check ya self, we weren't meant to be perfect.. check this we wouldnt bleed or get hurt.So mistakes, fall backs, all that shit happens. Just enrich yourself. And remind yourself, just like you pay bills and catch that booty call. The drugs crimes, ways, and vices people succumb to on a daily basis. When we enrich our spirits it starts to be harder to accept that garbage because we're feeding ourselves good shit ya dig. Im really not being religious- dont believe me pick up a Russell Simmons book or a yoga book, same shit.I always used to wonder how just some people with so much in life- no matter what it is, money& things,(or more close to home) family and love, be so miserable. Its what you feed yourself. A gossiper is full of shit, like literally you know. cause all she/he know is other people BS so thats all that flow through them- you can see em coming a mile away.True gossipers live off it, yall be seeing them thirsting for shit, cuzz they cant function or be content or happy without it. Enrich your spirit brotha. Enrich your spirit luv. This enriched me -Q.